6/29/2013 Update

I haven't posted in a very long time. Its funny actually to be typing out a post at all. I'm sure most of the people that used to read my blog have long since disappeared.

My last post talked about my marriage. This post will mention my divorce. A lot can happen in a year. I don't want to sling details of the marriage out, but I will say that it has been hard. I don't think divorce ever can just be an easy thing. The nights are the hardest, when you realize that yes, you really are alone again.

The empty bed is a killer.

I occupy my time working mostly. I work part time, and am currently pursuing a career in education. I'd like to teach elementary school. I live with a roommate and her son. My life right now is simple. My goal is to rebuild and create a life that is better than anything I've had so far.

I turn 21 in less than two weeks. I'll be taking a trip to celebrate, so I can get out of this city just for a little bit. I am still in Las Vegas, despite how much I wish I wasn't.

My hair still changes on a whim, so that's one thing about me that I've kept.

My current companion is Chloe, my chihuahua. She brings me a lot of happiness, because she's always happy to see me when I come home. 

My parents finally got their divorce about a year ago. My mom spends her time with my siblings now. I haven't actually seen my family in a long time. Its been almost a year and a half since I've seen my mom. Its really hard being away from family, especially while I'm struggling through my divorce. 

For now I'll just keep moving forward and hope for the best. 

My Life in a Year

I haven't posted to my blog in about a year. I guess a lot of that has to do with time.

Some of that has to do with the fact that everytime I posted something on my blog, I would hear about it the next day from certain people. I got genuinely tired of censoring myself, and chose to stop writing altogether to avoid the stress.

The last time I posted was January of last year, 2011. It's March of 2012, almost April now. So almost a year and four months. A lot has changed in my life since then. A lot has remained the same.

Last time I posted I was unemployed, but I've held a job for a year now. It's consistent, but pretty tiring. I work upwards of 30 hours a week, which doesn't sound like much, but it's constant labor. No desk job for me.

I've moved a few times since January, and I currently live in Henderson, NV. We have a nice little one bedroom apartment that's the perfect size for the two of us. It's fully furnished with our OWN furniture. Which is, of course, nice as well.

On February 23, 2012 Andrew and I got married.

So, as of today I have been married for one month and one day. It was a small wedding, attended by Andrew's brother and his girlfriend, as well as four of our good friends.

I haven't legally changed my name yet because I don't have my birth certificate, but once I get it I will begin the process.

My estranged father, who I haven't spoken to since July of 2010, found out because of the courts. Still haven't heard from him, and I'm assuming because he's too much of a coward to try to speak to me. He has all of the ability in the world, and none of the desire.

Andrew and I have been on a few vacations in the past year. Sadly, my old computer blew up and destroyed most of the pictures. I do have a few to share.
Those were from our trip to LA back last April. We went for 5 days, and on two of the days we went to Universal Studios. We also went to the beach and the Santa Monica pier.

We went on a camping trip with our best friends some time in the fall of last year. We've made new friends over the past year that are closer than any of our previous friends. They constantly come over and hang out, and we normally just play card games and still have a great time. Not pictured: other best friend Josh. He wasn't on the trip, but he's over the most out of anyone.

I also got more tattoos and a piercing.


I got another tattoo, but I'm not trying to find a picture of it right now.

My hair is now basically barbie doll blonde, which is a pain to keep up. But I wanted something different from my usual dark colors.
I also have a sweet little puppy named Chloe. She's four months old, and loves kisses and cuddles.
My mom and I still talk daily. We've had our ups and downs in our relationship, but we still talk and are relatively happy with eachother.

I've had ups and downs in my life. Hardships and stresses. Last year I was supposed to be married in April, but I suppose everything happens for a reason, and I just had to wait a year to be Mrs. Lopez.

My husband means the world to me. He genuinely cares for me and does everything in his power to provide for us. We're going on Vacation soon to get some well-deserved rest and relationship time. Of course, we're going to our favorite place in the world:
Disneyland. So attractive, I know.

Anyway, it's getting late, so I'm going to peace out. I'll leave you with my classic webcam photo, from current times.

My First Tattoo

Andrew got Mickey on the inside of his arm. It's a "hidden mickey" like at Disneyland.

Hairy Situation

I've gone through a lot of hairstyles in my life.

Not to mention...

And, last but not least...

Ever since the day I dyed my hair "redder than the devil's d--k," as Andrew likes to refer to it, I've refused to go back to anything else. My hair has been blonde, brunette, purple... but I always go back to red.

Part of me thinks that my refusal to change it up is due in part to the attention I receive for my hair. When people look at me, the first thing they notice is the giant pile of flames on top of my head.

Random people on the street compliment me, and I seem to get a reaction out of everyone.

I can't spend my entire life with hair like this. I don't need to be the lady in the nursing home that everyone feels sorry for because she won't "let go" of her youth. But I'm honestly not sure what to do.

Do I just continue on down my path and see where it takes me, or do I bite the bullet and go for something entirely different?

I don't know, I really don't. But what I do know is, for now at least, I love my fire-hair.

Aw... it's a picture of me right this very minute. I feel nostalgic.

Long Time Coming

I haven't really taken the time to blog in a while. I've had a lot of sources of tension about my blogging, mixed with the time-consuming University lifestyle.

I've been at NAU in Flagstaff since August. I'm currently taking six classes, working at the school paper, "The Lumberjack," as copy chief, working at the school radio station "KJACK," and holding down a part-time job at a diner downtown as a waitress.

In July, things drastically changed with my family dynamic. A rift in relationships caused my fiance, Andrew, to move here with me to Flagstaff. We currently live with my mom, but are considering relocating to our own place sometime in late December/early January.

My father and I no longer speak, and he and my mother are currently battling through a divorce. I've chosen to side with my mother after seeing how quickly my father turned on me for his girlfriend. Who, in fact, he was seeing while he was married.

Andrew and is parents have mended their relationship, and I hope to one day get to know them when the time is right. Right now we're focusing mainly on building our life together.

We did recently visit some of his aunts and cousins in California on our "family vacation" to Disneyland.

I've started going to Catholic services with Andrew so that I may begin my transition into the faith. Being with Andrew has helped me slowly overcome my fears and doubts, and my faith and relationship with God feels a lot stronger.

Andrew and I are planning a trip back to Vegas at the end of the month so that I can see my friends, and he can visit his family. Hopefully it all works out, because I really do miss my friends.

Things, for the most part, have been very happy on my end. Andrew and I still enjoy being with eachother just as much as the first day we met, and it just keeps getting better. There have been a few bumps in the road, but it's nothing we can't overcome. While I'm currently a bit of an icy subject with his nuclear family, eventually we hope that things will change.

So as I said, this post has been a long time coming. Hopefully I'll get around to posting again soon, but until then, at least you have an update glimpse into my life.

Catching Up

It's been a while since I've posted here.

I just lost the buzz to blog. Lost my motivation. Lost the initiative. It was less about expressing my feelings, and more about popularity.

But I have missed you all. So, I've decided to check in. Let you all know about the huge changes in my life.
I'll start with school. On May 18, 2010, I graduated from college.I now have my Associate's Degree in Journalism, with an emphasis on media studies.

I was accepted into Northern Arizona University, and will be attending for one semester this Fall. I'm currently living up in Flagstaff, but have made the choice to move back to Las Vegas after this Fall to attend UNLV instead.

Flagstaff is beautiful, but I've realized now that I've left Vegas just how precious it was to me.

I've dated a few guys since the last time I blogged. The infamous "Drew" and I broke up back in February, and I never looked back at it. It was the final step in removing myself from that situation.

I then dated a guy named Kyle. It was a short relationship, and it didn't end particularly well.

I also dated a guy named Matt, who I had gone to church camp with a few years prior. That didn't end particularly well, either.

I don't regret those relationships, though. They steered me in my current direction, to the person I feel I was meant to be with. And yes, that sounds cliche. I know.

This is Andrew:I can't explain it. But it's just so simple when I'm with him. We've never fought about anything, we've never gotten on each other's nerves. We talk to each other 24/7. We make each other happy. And it's not just some teeny-bopper romance.

I wish I could explain further, but for now, for the sake of privacy, I won't. But I can tell you it's very serious, and that I'm looking forward to the future.

We met through my friend Cassie.

Andrew and Cassie are in a band together. He's the guitarist and she's the singer. They're both very talented, to the point that it's almost intimidating just singing along with the radio around them.

It's fun, having the two people you care about most playing in a band together. Makes it easy to spend time with both of them.

I've also been spending more time with Shelby lately. I'm glad I'm moving back to Vegas in December, since we've become a lot closer.Oh, and I've also lost a lot of weight. I now weigh 103 pounds.Just adding to the whole appearance thing, I also now have hair as red as FIRE.But this is my life, so far. Things have changed drastically, and my future seems set in a direction that I never would have imagined.

As of today, July 11, I am an 18-year-old. An 18-year-old college graduate, that celebrated at a strip club and Denny's at 3 AM.

I regret nothing.

Everything in my life has been hectic and complicated, but I have someone to count on that makes me happy. I have my education. I have my family. And I am blessed in so many ways.

My skin's even managed to clear up so much more than it used to be.That was this morning, sans actual base makeup. Huzzah.

I've missed all of you, and I hope this at least gives you some insight into what my life has become and is still becoming to this day.

To round this off, I'm going old-school. I'm doing what I used to do after every post. A picture of me, right this second.

I Think I'm Done

I think I'm done blogging for a while.

I'm too tired of updating.

I'll be back, eventually. With probably half of my followers missing.

But the people that matter will stay.