Long Time Coming

I haven't really taken the time to blog in a while. I've had a lot of sources of tension about my blogging, mixed with the time-consuming University lifestyle.

I've been at NAU in Flagstaff since August. I'm currently taking six classes, working at the school paper, "The Lumberjack," as copy chief, working at the school radio station "KJACK," and holding down a part-time job at a diner downtown as a waitress.

In July, things drastically changed with my family dynamic. A rift in relationships caused my fiance, Andrew, to move here with me to Flagstaff. We currently live with my mom, but are considering relocating to our own place sometime in late December/early January.

My father and I no longer speak, and he and my mother are currently battling through a divorce. I've chosen to side with my mother after seeing how quickly my father turned on me for his girlfriend. Who, in fact, he was seeing while he was married.

Andrew and is parents have mended their relationship, and I hope to one day get to know them when the time is right. Right now we're focusing mainly on building our life together.

We did recently visit some of his aunts and cousins in California on our "family vacation" to Disneyland.

I've started going to Catholic services with Andrew so that I may begin my transition into the faith. Being with Andrew has helped me slowly overcome my fears and doubts, and my faith and relationship with God feels a lot stronger.

Andrew and I are planning a trip back to Vegas at the end of the month so that I can see my friends, and he can visit his family. Hopefully it all works out, because I really do miss my friends.

Things, for the most part, have been very happy on my end. Andrew and I still enjoy being with eachother just as much as the first day we met, and it just keeps getting better. There have been a few bumps in the road, but it's nothing we can't overcome. While I'm currently a bit of an icy subject with his nuclear family, eventually we hope that things will change.

So as I said, this post has been a long time coming. Hopefully I'll get around to posting again soon, but until then, at least you have an update glimpse into my life.

Catching Up

It's been a while since I've posted here.

I just lost the buzz to blog. Lost my motivation. Lost the initiative. It was less about expressing my feelings, and more about popularity.

But I have missed you all. So, I've decided to check in. Let you all know about the huge changes in my life.
I'll start with school. On May 18, 2010, I graduated from college.I now have my Associate's Degree in Journalism, with an emphasis on media studies.

I was accepted into Northern Arizona University, and will be attending for one semester this Fall. I'm currently living up in Flagstaff, but have made the choice to move back to Las Vegas after this Fall to attend UNLV instead.

Flagstaff is beautiful, but I've realized now that I've left Vegas just how precious it was to me.

I've dated a few guys since the last time I blogged. The infamous "Drew" and I broke up back in February, and I never looked back at it. It was the final step in removing myself from that situation.

I then dated a guy named Kyle. It was a short relationship, and it didn't end particularly well.

I also dated a guy named Matt, who I had gone to church camp with a few years prior. That didn't end particularly well, either.

I don't regret those relationships, though. They steered me in my current direction, to the person I feel I was meant to be with. And yes, that sounds cliche. I know.

This is Andrew:I can't explain it. But it's just so simple when I'm with him. We've never fought about anything, we've never gotten on each other's nerves. We talk to each other 24/7. We make each other happy. And it's not just some teeny-bopper romance.

I wish I could explain further, but for now, for the sake of privacy, I won't. But I can tell you it's very serious, and that I'm looking forward to the future.

We met through my friend Cassie.

Andrew and Cassie are in a band together. He's the guitarist and she's the singer. They're both very talented, to the point that it's almost intimidating just singing along with the radio around them.

It's fun, having the two people you care about most playing in a band together. Makes it easy to spend time with both of them.

I've also been spending more time with Shelby lately. I'm glad I'm moving back to Vegas in December, since we've become a lot closer.Oh, and I've also lost a lot of weight. I now weigh 103 pounds.Just adding to the whole appearance thing, I also now have hair as red as FIRE.But this is my life, so far. Things have changed drastically, and my future seems set in a direction that I never would have imagined.

As of today, July 11, I am an 18-year-old. An 18-year-old college graduate, that celebrated at a strip club and Denny's at 3 AM.

I regret nothing.

Everything in my life has been hectic and complicated, but I have someone to count on that makes me happy. I have my education. I have my family. And I am blessed in so many ways.

My skin's even managed to clear up so much more than it used to be.That was this morning, sans actual base makeup. Huzzah.

I've missed all of you, and I hope this at least gives you some insight into what my life has become and is still becoming to this day.

To round this off, I'm going old-school. I'm doing what I used to do after every post. A picture of me, right this second.

I Think I'm Done

I think I'm done blogging for a while.

I'm too tired of updating.

I'll be back, eventually. With probably half of my followers missing.

But the people that matter will stay.

I Have No Idea For a Title

I'm tired right now, so honestly my creative juices are not flowing like they should be.

But that won't stop me from blogging right now. I'm at work, it's a slow day, so I need something to occupy my time.

Of course, I would be doing something productive like homework, but I actually have no homework due.

Scratch that, I just finished the paperwork for my DJ Project, but that took 5 minutes.

My project is due next Thursday, and I'm finally recording it today. I'm nervous that I'm going to mess up. It's literally 15 minutes of watching the timers and pressing the right buttons, talking inbetween.

The timing has to be just right. You can't stop recording, you can't splice things together. You mess up big, you have to re-record the entire thing.

But at least I get to dance to some awesome music while it's recording.

I would chat with my boyfriend right now, but he's otherwise occupied. So I'm all alonesie on my ownsie. Which is a really annoying phrase that I hope I never say again. But I bet I will.

My classes have been relatively simple this week. They were completely canceled on Tuesday, so I spent the day hanging out with friends at school.

Today I'm hanging out with my bestie Anna, and we're going to go eat and then come back to the house to video chit chat with my guy. And watch movies. And shovel junk food down our gullets.

It's going to be awesome.

For the most part life has been good recently. Except I found out yesterday I may not actually be able to walk in graduating in May, which means I'll still never have walked in graduation.

That, and my mother and I are going to be on food stamps when we move to Flagstaff. Living in government housing.

Yeah, it's gotten that bad.

My mom's applying for food stamps soon. Of course now it's like a food "credit card" now, but that doesn't make it any less embarrassing. I've never been in a situation like this before.

But it's fine. I'll be in Flagstaff, in my dream school. That's all that matters.

I hope.

Marrying a Canadian

So in order to remedy the crap I've been going through, I married a Canadian.

It's not innuendo.

It's not real, either.

But my Canadian friend and I declared ourselves married, for the hell of it. And it's actually been a lot of fun.

Until his mother freaked out at our changed Facebook statuses.

But I still laughed.

My mother and I have decided to move to Flagstaff in June. It's going to be a very strange shift, and rather sudden.

I'm excited for the adventure, but very scared at the same time.

I've decided to take less time blogging so that I can focus on school, work and my Canadian.
Ha, my Canadian.

I'll still be blogging. But, I'm kind of sick of losing followers and having it bother me so much. It's not fair to me.

Changes

I've actually enjoyed taking a break from blogging for a while.

Although right now I'm getting REALLY ANGRY because my "E" key is sticking and making a really annoying POP sound everytime I type something with an E in it.

I think I may scream.

I've been dealing with things in my personal life, which is frustrating. I've said I'm not going to talk about it, and I really want to stick to that.

I'll just say that I hate being jerked around. Hate it, with a passion.

But that's okay.

I ordered my cap & gown a few days ago, and I'll be able to pick them up... I think it's April 1 or May 1. Either way, I get to wear a cap & gown! I'm also ordering honors chords and everything "honor" that I can wear.

I really want to order a class ring from the honor society, but it's $450, and I don't know if it's worth it. But I never got to wear a class ring, and all of my friends did. It's like a right of passage that I never got to have.

I'm worried about where we'll be after May, because in May the money runs out and we'll be broke.

I just hope that everything can work out.

Retail Therapy

I went shopping today. Since my dad lost his job, we won't really have any spare money for a while. But while we still have some cash, I decided to get some clothes for the summer.

I have created a montage for the pleasure of your eyeballs.I'm trying to grow up with my style. Less t-shirts, more dresses and blouses. And skirts.
I did get a flowery tank, but honestly? I don't care. It's adorable.

I also bought a new pair of jeans, but jeans are nothing special, so I didn't want to clutter my montage with them.

IT'S MY MONTAGE, I MAKE THE RULES.

I noticed that I dropped 2 followers overnight. I said this wouldn't bother me, but I hovered at 85 for a long time. I was happy to be above 85. I want to hit 100, somehow, some way.

I should be thankful I have 85. But I don't need you deserters to start a trend. I WILL HUNT YOU DOWN.

I'm also blogging on Tumblr now, much more frequently (since it's a more mindless form of blogging.) You can see it at leemariefink.tumblr.com.