Well this post took a dark turn didn't it?

So today is Monday. Big woo. Usually people my age are in school on Mondays (except today I found out because of staff development day), but usually I am sitting here, contemplating whether I should jump on the treadmill, surfing around looking for something to do.
Last night I couldn't really sleep well because my irrational fear of death came back to... scare me to death? Bad pun, I know.
I've kind of suffered from this irrational fear for months. There was a period of time when I would lay on the couch crying and couldn't do anything else. It doesn't help that I suffered from depression for a long time, and that instead of trying to quench my fear my church kind of deepened it and gave it a sharper edge.
I've done everything I could think of the remove the fear, but the only thing that has actually stood out and WORKED is repeating this mantra that I made for myself - "Don't live life in fear of death. Live life in spite of it."
Hopefully one day I'll be able to get through a long period of time without thinking about it, until then I just have to keep repeating my words of assurance.

Anyway, on a lighter note, my mom came in with an issue of Cosmogirl... I really don't like this cover.
I can't really figure out what I don't like. Maybe I've just never really liked Scarlett Johan... *spell checks* Johansson. Just looking at this cover makes me think "If I'd been in the store, I wouldn't have bought this myself." Plus I'm so sick of politics right now that if I see one more article about anything voting related I will strangle someone. Like literally walk up to someone, preferably somebody like Andy Dick or that one guy with chiclet teeth, and just strangle them. And keep strangling until whatever says "vote" on it is removed from my sight.
I couldn't even vote in this election, but to be honest that's a good thing. I very possibly wouldn't have. So many political campaigns were shoved down our throats that the last thing I wanted to do was support anyone.

Anyway, I should probably start writing another paragraph of my paper. It's not due until december, and I'm a whiz at cranking out papers, so there's no need to rush.

Thought I'd throw this out there: If anyone wants me to make a banner/background/some kind of graphic for their blog, website, etc. I'll be happy to. I like having things to make so that I can kill time. Just keep in mind I can find pictures, I can find brushes, but I can't draw. Well, I can. If you think this is art:
If you like that sorta thing, I can crank those out all day for you baby.
Anyway, thanks for reading!! Hope your day is less term-paper filled than mine.