Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Life As I Know It

I broke up with Drew again.

Probably for the final time.

It wasn't like the other splits.

It didn't start with a fight. It didn't end with crying and pleas for "Just one more chance."

It was 6 text messages, 20 minutes, and barely any emotion. Except my friends staring at me asking why I wasn't crying.

It's because I was done. I was done with the blistering arguments that we would have. I was done with the lack of care that either of us had. I wanted more. I didn't want to be in a relationship because I wanted to be in a relationship.

I wanted to be in a relationship because I wanted to be with the person.

So I ended it. Finally, right? I've been dumped 3 times. I deserved to hold the reigns at least once.

I care about him. I always will. But I want someone that I don't have to struggle with. Someone sweet, funny, cute. Someone that I don't have trust issues with. Someone I don't have screaming contests with.

I'm already interested in someone, but we're taking it slow and I'm going to keep it private because I don't feel like making it into a sideshow. I really like the person, and I really want to make it work without laying it out for the world to see.

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My journalism professor handed me a brief note on a piece of paper today.

I expected it to be a graded assignment, maybe some kind of reprimand (which is why I got nervous).

When I read it, I got so excited.

My professor nominated me for an award as an outstanding student in the communications department.

How awesome is that?

My day has been great. I've been talking to a great guy, getting all my work done, no problems with anyone.

Hopefully the rest of my week is the same.

11 comments:

Kristina P. said...

That is great about the nomination. Sorry about the breakup. Regardless of the circumstances, they always suck.

Amander said...

You look so happy in that picture!

Sorry about the break-up. And I think it's great to keep your relationship private - some things are just not necessary for everyone to know.

Kaitlyn said...

I'm sorry about the break-up. But just remember... it's never perfect. Daniel and I struggle and butt heads all the time, but you just have to decide whether or not it's worth it. It sounds like you made the right choice. :)

Carmen said...

Congrats on the nomination! I would say I'm sorry about the break up, but I'm not going to because everytime someone said that to me I thought to myself "Why? I'm not." and it seems like you're in a similar place. So instead I'm going to say congrats for taking control of an important area of your life and realizing it was time to move on! :-D

Mighty M said...

Such a cool award! I think relationships deserve and should be FABULOUS, so get out there and find it! :) Have a great day!!

Tim said...

Congrats on the award thats AWESOME!

VERY happy to see that your moving on from Drew, I bet your life starts to become allot happier now! We love ya either way though and you know it.

Love and Prayers,

Tim

Sheri said...

Good move with dumping Drew, and not broadcasting everything with the maybe new guy. :)

Congrats on the nomination that is awesome :)

Wendyburd1 said...

Okay, this is all my fault I admit it. But people are thinking I am no longer reading them and so I don't want them to read ME and COMMENT, and I DO! I AM still reading you and I will start commenting again I promise!

I got into a bad rhythm when I started having so much computer problems, I started not commenting thinking most my comments were probably lame and not wanted, but i see that was a mistake and want to rectify that NOW. I am going to get back to my Comment-Whoring ways...that is Kristina's phrase remember that, LOL, and so come back to me my friends, I NEVER left you, I just got way too comfy with Google Reader and read you there!! I LOVE my bloggy friends!!

Erin said...

Congrats for the nomination of a great award! When will you find out the results?

And yeah, breakups are always hard. I hope you are doing all right today.

Liz said...

Congrats on the nomination!

It sounds like you are at peace with the whole Drew situation. I hope things work out for you with the new guy.

Grand Pooba said...

Sound like the break up is going to be a good thing for you! You're right, you do need someone you don't have to struggle with.

Congrats on your nomination! That's awesome!

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