Friday, August 21, 2009

What I Meant Was...

Well, last night some people were confused about what I meant when I said that Drew and I had been best friends at one point.
When we were best friends, it was after we had broken up the second time.
It started out much the same as this has.
He's inconsiderate, I'm still in a bad place from the breakup.

That doesn't mean it won't work out in the long run.
It worked out last time, I just had to give it a little time.

I know you guys think that I should get rid of him. But remembering the way it worked out last time, and realizing it's only been 3 days since we broke up, it's really not worth it to me to just get rid of the relationship.
Yet.

But that doesn't mean I'll keep taking that kind of crap. Like I said, it was rocky the last time we transitioned into best friends, but it worked.
We've always been great at being friends. Just... not so great at dating.

The problem with ranting on my blog is that you guys get one side. You get to see me when I'm angry, but I barely ever talk about the good.
But me being angry is a small percentage of our relationship.

Yeah, what he did last night was hurtful to me. And yeah, he's done a lot of hurtful stuff in the past. But since this is really just a trial period friendship, if it doesn't go back the way it was, I'm going to "cut the apron strings".
I may have faith in people, but there's only so much someone can take.

And Bobby, I may have been a shitty friend by saying those things, but I'm fed up.
Say what you want, he had it coming ten times over.
Plus that post was an open letter to him. I knew that if I wrote out my feelings in a place that he read often, in front of other people, it may finally sink in.
Which it did.

Hope now that we can get back to how we were a few months ago. Friends, talking, laughing.
I know you guys probably don't care, think I'm making a mistake. But I've seen how we work as friends, and I also know I got dumped 3 days ago.
Obviously I'm going to find reasons to be mad at him after only a few days. Come on, the wounds are still fresh.

That doesn't mean that Drew is a bad person. It means that I just need some time to heal.

Take from it what you may, but I'm not going to throw away someone that I know makes a good best friend... once we get past the rocky start.

13 comments:

Lucy said...

The next time you are tempted to date him read these posts again to remind you that you are better off as friends than as boyfriend/girlfriend.
Remember, just say 'no' (lol)
Good Luck!!

LaurieJ said...

Lee-
if I knew you at all in real life I would give you a big hug and tell you that if you want to know how someone is going to treat you today then look at how they treated you yesterday and the day before that. Do not ever settle for mediocrity in your relationships- even friendships. you are worth more than that!
Phew! Glad I got that off my chest :-)

Bobby G said...

Lee, Sorry girl, I wasnt tryin to be a dick I was trying to say HE may see it that way, which is why he was being an ass! I agree he had it coming, I dont Judge you at all!!! Still love me a little?

Jessica♥ said...

awee. I'm sure you guys can be great friends.
All in all, I hope you can find a better guy friend than him.
One that won't treat you like crap then be nice and expect you to be there.
=/

Kristina P. said...

Well, I really do that whatever you decide he treats you how you deserve to be treated.

Erin said...

I'm with everyone else - take care of yourself, and don't let him (or anyone else) treat you badly.

Grand Pooba said...

I agree with you that the wounds are too fresh right now. Like I said in my other comment, you need to spend some time apart from each other.

Sarah said...

I know that you will do what YOU want, that nothing a bunch of strangers on your blog say will change your mind...I've always said that I respect what you do but I hope that overall, above anything else, you will make sure it is the best for YOU. My theory on friends of relationships is that you should be happy AT LEAST 75% of the time...if you're not, it's not worth it. Sounds harsh but this is coming from someone that is a recovered door mat ans wasted 10 years of my life on trash..

ramsam said...

Sometimes letting go and moving on can take a long time, and that is okay. Life is about learning and growing....that takes time.

I want to say, though, I really pictured myself with different guys and thought for sure certain men would be a part of my life. Once I met my husband my perspective changed so much- the relationship was so different, so mature, he was so kind, we never fought- we disagreed and tlaked it out- it was not like nay other mane I had ever dated. Having that experience made me finally get it....you can fall in love, be treated well, and be best friends with one guy. When you do- all others will just not matter anymore.

Wendyburd1 said...

I know you really valued your friendship, but I don't want him to use it to get you to give him a fourth chance at romance. IF he CAN be a good friend, one you really don't want to give up, I hope he can be. But if he disregards your feelings, don't let him get that close again.

Sheri said...

I agree with everyone's comments on the posts too. It is up to you to take the advice or not. Only you and Drew really know how it is. We just see it from this point of view. However, if you look through your posts about him and see where you were in each of those, is it really worth it? In all honesty, I don't see him changing.

Yaya said...

I never was good at the "just friends" thing....

Liz said...

I hope everything works out for you, Lee!

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